Nobody understands me when i am sad =(

"Diana, dun wan go learn ur gammar??" my father always repeat this sentence since friday. just because i fail my EL, cant do anything. watch tv also say "y are u spending ur time on this movie? u can use this time to learn ur tenses ryte? using 2 hours to watch movie, if u spend 2 hours on grammar, u can at least learn 3 to 4 tenses ryte???" i feel so miserable. then i know my father surely dun agree me going out tmr wan. then xue qi angry with me cos i cant go out tmr with her to celebrate her birthday. =( feeling more miserable now. nobody understand i now so fcuking miserable and sad. i have been studying whole afternoon sial. tired of it. sick of it. scared of it. xue qi dunno how lucky she is that she can at least on9 or go out alone better than me cant even go out. everytime nobody understands my inside. i feel so sad now... to xue qi, if u reading this post. dun feel offended, i am just pouring out my feelings. i just want to let u know that, not that i dun wanna go out. its not up to me. u say everything heck care heck care like very easy like that. y not i xchange with you with my life for one month. no need one month, one week u cant stand edi. i am not looking down that u cant stand my father. i am being realistic. my mum agree so what? she is not the chief in the house. and u know that i wont go out without my father saying 'YES' to tell u frankly, i have NEVER EVER disobey my father b4 in my life. not because i dun dare. but the consequences of disobeying him is worst than hell. if i disobey him once, i will NEVER get the thing i want again. i REALLY REALLY REALLY want to go out. i want to break free from this cage and my father's claw. i just want someone to save me. but like i said, nobody helped me when i am in trouble. thats all for today. father edi ask me go revise grammar. thx, sorry and bye.