felt.... empty??

yea, i fill so empty..... i normally dun believe in LOVE, erm cos..... i dun believe in them la! it seems that everybody surroundding me i mean most of them, has a crush or admirer. but i didn have one yet?! i hv one la, during primary school, but aiya forget it! its over! so, so far, i observed singapore boys, and they are either a flirt or a blur wan. and the boys in my class is so not gentle-mannered =.= as u know. frankly speaking, *swears to GOD* i dun ven hv a admirer. believe me. and i dun think i will have one, cos my school is not a good school, so the boys there are so-called the "filtrate". means the good ones remain on the filter paper as "residue" while the bad ones flows into the sink as "filtrate" or u can call them GARBAGE!! serious. and Honestly, i prefer Malaysia boys. they are much more cuter, more gentle-mannered, more erm?? BETTER! ok and i errrr.... reli hopes that i can find one that treats me GOOD ................. in the future xD. cos if i hv a BF now, i swear my mum will slash me into pieces. cos she asks me to concentrate on my studies and my swimming career!! i was like [mum,this is part and parcel of growing up.] my mum:"shut up and concentrate, dun talk rubbish, and if in future u bring back ur BF, pls pls pls bring back a GOOD wan, if u bring back a monkey, i swear he will eat "broomstick" from me and a baseball stick from ur dad" i was like *shivers* do you need to be so CRUEL? she said"if he reli loves u, he eat my golfstick also he wont go. this is to test try to see if he is serious abt you, and thats applys same to ur sister" me =.= ya, this reminds me of that a show i watched last night. its abt a couples who is going to get married, the guys edi proposed 8 donkey times!!! the girl finally take him to see her family. so they went to the village first to see her ama, and nursery mother xD. the nursery mother is a MAN, with 2 big boobs! then they go touch him everywhere actually is to touch whether he got illness. then they let him eat the cockcroach, then the pregnant woman inside when they have baby, the thing protecting the baby wan. so disgusting. then the guy puked so many times, cos they wanna let him vomit out all the "poison" as ppl livng in city is polluted! then they went to the parents in Hong Kong. they tested him tiringly again. then my mum said to my dad:"u should learn from them, test ur future son-in-law like the way they did." i gave my mum a stare, and said:"to be ur son-in-law is like using his life to gamble!" my mum:"of course la, u think be my son0in-law so eay ar...." me:"after no one dare marry me and my sister how??" my mum:" dun worry la" me =.= u feed me untill i die meh?? xD ok then the guy went to the girl's big brother there and ask for approvement for their marriage! another test! his newly-opened shop is just right beside the big brothers shop to snatch business from his big brother!! OMG then i didn watch i fell aslept!!! so stupid la the show!!